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“So many pluses! I am sure there are even more. I have always looked up to my father, he is a sort of my role model. He knows 3 languages and I thought “Damn, am I not capable enough to be like that as well? Bollocks.” His response brought me a picture that his father was idolatrous figure in his life, he spoke about him with such devotion and respect that I found myself to be a little envious. My father left me when I was 8 months old, never trying to get in contact with me, all I saw were alimony reduction letters from him. At 16 I decided to be a big girl I made the first step and was left with disappointment. He said he had already had a family and I would be an obstacle for him. The reality could be harsh but it was for the best. One less hypocrite in my life.

“I look up to many people but most of the time I find myself to be a good for nothing creature. Many people have knowledge of languages channeling it with other more important activities. Anyway, there are their lives but I have my own path I should follow and stop crying around and start to create something mine.” I was broken creature, so self-chastising and self-flagellation were developed on a high scale.