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And then he confirmed it: “If our secret ever gets out, everyone will think you’re gay. Nobody will want you on their team or in their program. It would be the end of everything for you because nobody wants to deal with people like us.”

I don’t know if he meant it as a threat. I mean, of course he did. But back then I saw it as something he feared would happen to me if “the secret” ever got out, something he didn’t want to happen to me because it would cause me pain and suffering and he was there to look out for me.

The things a goalie doesn’t see when he’s screened.

I should have run away from him forever. I didn’t. I could have stopped him right there. I didn’t. If I had stopped him, nothing would ever have happened to Sheldon, to Todd, to Theo, to all of his other victims who came after me. Except that I didn’t. I didn’t stop him from anything, and that is my shame. I’m not ashamed of what happened to me. My shame is that I didn’t stop him and that others after me had to suffer as a result. Their suffering is all my fault. I could have prevented it all.